Hi. I'm 12 years old, and I live happily ever after. At least it seems so. For several months now I have often watched a lot of videos about anorexia and depression. As far as anorexia is concerned, I may soon fall into it. Recently I've also started to hold my breath for as long as possible, and when I take a bath or go into the bathroom, for example, I look at my razor and imagine how cool it would be if such warm blood started dripping on my hands. Often you sit for 2 hours and look at the wall without thinking about anything. Sometimes she's dreaming, she thinks it would be great to sleep for eternity. And when I was at the colony this summer, my friend hit me so hard that I started scratching on my hands and there was one long scar left, which my mother didn't believe. I don't have friends because it doesn't suit people. I play the clarinet, I sing, I play plays and they what? Girls are all fake girls chasing gimbuses, and boys? They're just cretins (those in my class). What am I supposed to do to feel good?