It's all going to be a mess because I'm a lesbian.
Until recently, my life was perfect. Dream school, great friends and boyfriends, but for some time now I feel like everything has changed drastically.
For over a month now, I've been feeling depressed for a reason. My boyfriend is wonderful, dear, caring and always helps me, but I don't feel anything for him anymore because...I'm a lesbian.
Yeah, I feel like I'm not into boys for a while. I can't imagine continuing this relationship, I'm not happy about it. I don't know how to get to a breakup. I don't want to hurt him so much because he cares about me. Friends have always supported me, but I can't tell them that. I don't know how they'll react. I'm scared.
And now the worst. I fell in love at first sight with a girl in second grade. She's perfect. My legs bend when I walk by her. I would never dare talk to her to meet her. I'm very shy. I don't even know her name. All I know is that she has a beautiful smile and I guess she is bisexual, but I don't know if that's true.
It hurts so much, I can't deal with my mixed feelings. She doesn't even know about my existence. It pains me so much that I have to hide my feelings. I feel like I'm depressed because I've ruined everything...